It’s 1.10 in the morning of June 17th, 2012; and I’m still wide awake.
Thought I might get this post done before our last trip to Bukit Tinggi, and most important of all, last memory we share together. :)
We’ve been dating for almost 4 months, and honestly, you made me really happy. Yes, we had our ups and downs, but we still stood by each other. Remember our quote? “Nobody said the journey would be easy, they only said it will be worth it. I’m glad that you and I are in this together”. :) We did it. You and I, we’ve been through a lot together. Honestly, if you were to ask me to list them out one by one, it would be hell of big challenge for me because heck, I’m sure even you lost count of the fights we had in JUST 4 months’ time. Lol. come to think of it, our “relationship” was extremely dramatic, wasn’t it? :P
Some times, I can’t help but wonder.. How did 2 individuals with such similar personalities get together? And, most of all, why? I found the answer to my own question after 4 months. We make each other grow. Or at very least, you made me grow. You were a part of my life story, and will always be. :)
Thank You, Ong Jian Arn. :)
I’m sorry that this time, I would have to be selfish for once & for all, even after all that we’ve been through together. I really thought that you were the one for me, and honestly, I loved you. I gave you everything that a girl could offer, every possible first. You weren’t just another boy. You never were, not even in the beginning. I just couldn’t bring myself to leave even when I knew that the chances of you making me your just another girl were 95%. Lol. Remember that we joked about me being a piglet while you being a tiger? :P Until today, I still believe that I’m a pig who placed myself in the tiger’s mouth, praying & hoping that I would come out alive. But apparently, my wishes and hopes failed me. That 95% came true. :) I am just another girl. I’m sorry that I can’t see myself staying with a guy who not only two-timed, but at the same time, hit on other girls. Especially not the guy who toyed with my feelings. Every single detail about how I felt, I’ve already delivered it to you through whatsapp. We can spare the details, I believe.
You’re one guy with a good heart, that’s what I always believe in; but I have to say, you truly disappointed me. In fact, disappointed is an understatement. :)
I don’t know why do I bother dedicating a post to you even though everything that we shared, or at least, I thought that we shared, means nothing to you. But I’ll you know, it means a lot to me. You were important, you were one guy whom I gave my heart to. Even though I was dumb enough to not realize that you never meant to catch me, hence, never even thought of asking me officially, I still gave in everything. :) I’ve said what I have to, its up to you to believe or not.
But nevertheless, thank you so much, for being in my life for almost 4 months. :) You taught me lessons which are priceless.
All the best & take care. :)
Wong Yee Munn